our conversations were limited....It wasn't that I was actively unpopular. I just didn't have anyone special to talk to. Mostly I felt I was walking through the scene, saying my lines reasonably well, but not being really in the show. At school I tried to play the role that was expected of me, as best I could. With Max, I was myself.This is about Polly, a brainy teenager attending a school which is free of brainy people. There have been times in my life that were like that, and times that were not like that. I tend to blame myself for the way I'm not myself, for the way I live walking through the scene. But I have to bear in mind, I'm not in an environment which suits me. I've thrived in other environments. I will thrive again.
In the past year, I've met some interesting people. I will get to know them better. I will meet more interesting people. Maybe I can once again find a place where I can thrive.