I took the day off work to do chores, including dealing with frustrating phone calls. It was hot and humid. I was tired. I was so tired that I felt shaky about moving. But I persevered. I remembered feeling this way other times, and coming out okay. I went to the laundromat and did laundry. I hung up the laundry on the balcony. After the laundry was hung, I sat on the balcony. Suddenly, the day was transformed into a beautiful evening. The air, formerly hot and humid, was cool and clear, a perfect temperature. The leaves glowed in the golden evening light, and fluttered in the breeze. Overhead, the sky was blue, with clouds. There was a layer of high clouds which stayed plastered to the sky, while the low clouds flew rapidly toward me. The low clouds looked like giant birds or dragons. I lay there gazing up, and I saw a flock of dragons flying overhead. I just lay there basking in the wonder.
Then, after the flock of dragons passed by, I turned my attention to something closer to me. Hanging on the clothesline right beside me was one of my fleece throws. It has rainbow colors which I like, but even more, I like that the colors are not in orderly rows of stripes, but rather, they wander about. The orange is shaped like flames. So I stared at the fleece for a while, and its beauty filled me with wonder, just like the beauty of the sky and the leaves filled me with wonder. An exquisite evening.
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Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Precious moments
My sister is visiting me for four days. Today we walked at the canal for about an hour and a half, and then hung out in a grassy spot by the river for about two and a half hours. While we hung out in the grassy spot, I frolicked about -- dancing, rolling in the grass, adopting various goofy poses. It has been a long time since I felt that way, felt that joy and silliness flow freely through me. I often visit the canal and the river, but usually in solitude. There is a certain vivacity that emerges only when in the presence of others.
Then we went home and had supper. I was worn out from the day's adventures, but my sister was not. As I lay resting in the living room, she washed dishes in the kitchen. I could hear her singing to herself, happily and un-self-consciously. She sang "On Top of Spaghetti," a capoeira song in Portuguese, and something about a bear with honey on his paws.
As I listened, I felt so blessed to have my home filled by her joyful presence. These are the moments that make life precious.
Then we went home and had supper. I was worn out from the day's adventures, but my sister was not. As I lay resting in the living room, she washed dishes in the kitchen. I could hear her singing to herself, happily and un-self-consciously. She sang "On Top of Spaghetti," a capoeira song in Portuguese, and something about a bear with honey on his paws.
As I listened, I felt so blessed to have my home filled by her joyful presence. These are the moments that make life precious.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Community gathering and wonder
For the past few weeks, I have been blessed with good health, so I went out twice. (I mean, usually I go out to work and grocery shopping, but when I'm not feeling well, I don't want to go places any more than I have to.)
First, I attended a meeting of a simple living group. They meet once a month. At each meeting, they have a speaker on a topic of interest, and a discussion. I liked being amongst people who share my values within my community. I'm accustomed to interacting with people who share my values on the internet, and reading books by people who share my values, but it's something else to be physically in a community. In the discussion, the comment that resonated with me most was about how the politicians talk about growing the economy, no one is talking about reducing consumption.
The other event that I went to was an organ concert. Many cities and towns in my area have one Friday or Saturday evening a month designated as "art night" or a "night out." Tonight was such a night in my town. The organ concert was part of that. It was short, because it was meant to be just one stop as people wander around the downtown. It was put on by a church. I think the people running it were associated with the church, and that the audience was a mix of people from the church and people not from the church.
The audience included people of all ages. There was a little girl (daughter of the organist) who would start crawling away, and the mother would call to her, and then the girl would come back. I was impressed that a child so little that she is crawling would come when called. Before the concert started, when the organist appeared in the organ loft, one of his older kids said from the pews, loud enough for all to hear, "Hi Daddy!"
There were some people dressed in Halloween costumes greeting people as we entered. Up front, there were candles and some of the fake spiderweb stuff people use for Halloween decorations. Also in the front, unobtrusively tucked between two columns, was a skull-like head. Near the end of the last song, a figure appeared. There was a head that was like the skull of a monster, with orange eyes, and the body was draped in sheets. This figure was suspended on a line, and had been mostly unnoticed in the back of the room, but at a particular time during the performance, the figure slid forward along the line to the front of the room.
What struck me was that people put themselves into creating this experience, into the costumes, decorations, and suspended figure. They did this to enhance our experience of the concert. It's beautiful when a community creates something in this way. That's the life I want. I don't want to be shut away in my apartment glued to a computer screen. I want to be a part of my community.
I wrote that the suspended figure had been "mostly unnoticed." The little boy in front of me, who was maybe 8 or 9, noticed it partway through the show. I saw him pointing to the back of the room, and I could tell that what he saw appeared wondrous to him, but I did not turn to look. I heeded the advice of his mother, who advised him not to draw attention, because it would spoil the surprise for other people.
At the front of the room, there was a screen, on which there was a projection of the organist playing. Normally, you just see the back of the organist, and don't see the keyboard, but the screen allowed us to see the keyboard and the organist's hands playing. Before the concert started, on the screen they showed a video clip from Phantom of the Opera. When the little boy in front of me arrived, he wanted to be sure that he was sitting in a way that he could see the screen. To me, the screen was slightly interesting, but not something it was essential to see. Seeing this boy reminded me to view the world with wonder.
Between songs, the organist introduced someone whom he said was going to make an announcement about chocolate. She told us that they had little squares of fair trade chocolate for all of us, and that the chocolate came with a card about why to choose fair trade, about the child labor sometimes used in producing chocolate, and that sort of thing. I thought that was lovely -- that the church used the concert as an opportunity to share their concern for others, that the concern for others was presented in the form of giving chocolate, and that giving chocolate was so fitting for a Halloween themed concert.
I hope my health continues, so that I can continue to be a part of my community. I want to support the people who make the effort to put these things together.
First, I attended a meeting of a simple living group. They meet once a month. At each meeting, they have a speaker on a topic of interest, and a discussion. I liked being amongst people who share my values within my community. I'm accustomed to interacting with people who share my values on the internet, and reading books by people who share my values, but it's something else to be physically in a community. In the discussion, the comment that resonated with me most was about how the politicians talk about growing the economy, no one is talking about reducing consumption.
The other event that I went to was an organ concert. Many cities and towns in my area have one Friday or Saturday evening a month designated as "art night" or a "night out." Tonight was such a night in my town. The organ concert was part of that. It was short, because it was meant to be just one stop as people wander around the downtown. It was put on by a church. I think the people running it were associated with the church, and that the audience was a mix of people from the church and people not from the church.
The audience included people of all ages. There was a little girl (daughter of the organist) who would start crawling away, and the mother would call to her, and then the girl would come back. I was impressed that a child so little that she is crawling would come when called. Before the concert started, when the organist appeared in the organ loft, one of his older kids said from the pews, loud enough for all to hear, "Hi Daddy!"
There were some people dressed in Halloween costumes greeting people as we entered. Up front, there were candles and some of the fake spiderweb stuff people use for Halloween decorations. Also in the front, unobtrusively tucked between two columns, was a skull-like head. Near the end of the last song, a figure appeared. There was a head that was like the skull of a monster, with orange eyes, and the body was draped in sheets. This figure was suspended on a line, and had been mostly unnoticed in the back of the room, but at a particular time during the performance, the figure slid forward along the line to the front of the room.
What struck me was that people put themselves into creating this experience, into the costumes, decorations, and suspended figure. They did this to enhance our experience of the concert. It's beautiful when a community creates something in this way. That's the life I want. I don't want to be shut away in my apartment glued to a computer screen. I want to be a part of my community.
I wrote that the suspended figure had been "mostly unnoticed." The little boy in front of me, who was maybe 8 or 9, noticed it partway through the show. I saw him pointing to the back of the room, and I could tell that what he saw appeared wondrous to him, but I did not turn to look. I heeded the advice of his mother, who advised him not to draw attention, because it would spoil the surprise for other people.
At the front of the room, there was a screen, on which there was a projection of the organist playing. Normally, you just see the back of the organist, and don't see the keyboard, but the screen allowed us to see the keyboard and the organist's hands playing. Before the concert started, on the screen they showed a video clip from Phantom of the Opera. When the little boy in front of me arrived, he wanted to be sure that he was sitting in a way that he could see the screen. To me, the screen was slightly interesting, but not something it was essential to see. Seeing this boy reminded me to view the world with wonder.
Between songs, the organist introduced someone whom he said was going to make an announcement about chocolate. She told us that they had little squares of fair trade chocolate for all of us, and that the chocolate came with a card about why to choose fair trade, about the child labor sometimes used in producing chocolate, and that sort of thing. I thought that was lovely -- that the church used the concert as an opportunity to share their concern for others, that the concern for others was presented in the form of giving chocolate, and that giving chocolate was so fitting for a Halloween themed concert.
I hope my health continues, so that I can continue to be a part of my community. I want to support the people who make the effort to put these things together.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Fun with friends
Sometimes I go rollerblading or rowing or kayaking, and I feel, "This is wonderful! I should do this every day!"
Sometimes I don't go anywhere, and I think, "It is so great to have free time, to not have to go places. I should stay home all the time!"
Lately, I mostly find people annoying. And, I love having time to myself, to pursue my own agenda, whether it's kayaking, staying home, becoming a druid, or practicing tai chi. Most of the time, I'm glad I don't have people around to take me away from the things I want to do. Mostly I look upon social events as chores I'd like to avoid. But I spent this evening with friends, and so now I'm like, "This was great! I should spend time with people all the time!"
The best part was when my friend and her toddler and I were dancing around the living room singing along to Chim Chiminy. It has been a long time since I had that kind of fun, and I had forgotten what it was like.
A decade ago, I could be like that with my group of friends, and that's what I loved about being in that group of friends, but then that was over, and I was left hurt and cynical.
Connecting with people in that way is not something you can control. Sometimes we are blessed to have something like that in our lives; other times, our lives are stripped of people we can connect with. We do have some choice about to what extent we open our lives to other people, but we can't control what we get when we do open our lives.
Sometimes I don't go anywhere, and I think, "It is so great to have free time, to not have to go places. I should stay home all the time!"
Lately, I mostly find people annoying. And, I love having time to myself, to pursue my own agenda, whether it's kayaking, staying home, becoming a druid, or practicing tai chi. Most of the time, I'm glad I don't have people around to take me away from the things I want to do. Mostly I look upon social events as chores I'd like to avoid. But I spent this evening with friends, and so now I'm like, "This was great! I should spend time with people all the time!"
The best part was when my friend and her toddler and I were dancing around the living room singing along to Chim Chiminy. It has been a long time since I had that kind of fun, and I had forgotten what it was like.
A decade ago, I could be like that with my group of friends, and that's what I loved about being in that group of friends, but then that was over, and I was left hurt and cynical.
Connecting with people in that way is not something you can control. Sometimes we are blessed to have something like that in our lives; other times, our lives are stripped of people we can connect with. We do have some choice about to what extent we open our lives to other people, but we can't control what we get when we do open our lives.
Monday, May 3, 2010
May
May is a joyous season as we emerge from winter's cold and darkness to find the trees, lilacs, and azaleas bursting forth with color, and I watch the greening of the hydrangea leaves as I eagerly look forward to the emergence in June of the hydrangea's flowers. This celebratory month includes the birthdays of one of my brothers, my sister, my sister-in-law, my father, my stepfather, 3 of my uncles, my cousin, and various musicians, including Pete Seeger, Fred Hellerman, Donovan, Utah Phillips, Peter Yarrow, and Sydney Carter, as well as my own birthday. It's the season of celebration!
Thursday, November 26, 2009
A good day
Happiness is going rollerblading on a warm (by November standards) sunny day, and then on the way home, hearing a song on the radio that was my favorite when I was about 5, and singing along to the radio. What more could anyone ask for?
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Giving thanks, 2009
It's that time of year again to think about what I am thankful for. Here's what's on my mind this year:
- It seems the most precious times are the times we spend with loved ones. I am grateful for a large family. I am grateful that my family has expanded, with the addition of my nephew and his mother. My family members follow such diverse paths -- pro-technology and anti-technology, traveler and homebody, athlete and scholar. What they share is the value placed on each person following his or her unique path. They don't seek to conform to a mainstream mold, nor do they tell me how I should live. I am grateful for family and friends who understand and share my values, style of expression, and lifestyle. I am grateful for all the friends who once touched my life, even though now many of their paths have diverged from mine. I am grateful that for the current time in my life, a close friend is there for me every day with kindness, intelligence, and wit.
- Among those values my family shares with me are that integrity and kindness are more important than wealth and prestige. But it is a luxury to be able to disdain wealth. I only can disdain it because my material needs are met. I am grateful that I never have to worry about not having enough food to eat or not having a place to take shelter from the cold. I am grateful to have a car that runs and the ability to drive it, so that I can easily visit relatives, go grocery shopping, go to concerts, etc.
- I am grateful that my body is more or less in working order. Last winter when I broke my wrist, it was at times a struggle to function. I think it would be even harder to lose the use of my legs, or my eyesight, or my hearing. It's so easy to forget, but having our five senses and our mobility makes life so much easier, and it's something that can be lost at any time in a sudden accident.
- Another thing that's easy to forget is the earth, which sustains us with air to breathe, water to drink, food to eat, and beauty to inspire us.
- I am grateful for the opportunity to do radio shows. Planning playlists is a fulfilling creative outlet for me.
- I am grateful for my spirituality and values, which keep me grounded through the vicissitudes of life.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Gratitude
Last night I lay on the living room floor listening to music, and I felt so fortunate. I was there, safe at home, not having to worry about food, shelter, or the threat of violence. I may not be energetic, but I was not in pain or uncomfortable. I have my hearing, so I am able to enjoy music. How fortunate I am to have my hearing! I've listened to those CDs many times before, but suddenly I was noticing things about the sounds of the instruments that I never noticed before, and it was beautiful!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Hooray for summer
I love summer because after work it is both light enough and warm enough to go outside. And on weekends, I can go sit by the river. And in summer I'm less sick.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Hope
On the way to and from work, I walk past the hydrangeas. At this time of year, the green leaves are growing, but there are no flowers. As I see how the leaves have been growing, it makes me happy, because I know flowers on the way. Sometimes the anticipation of something brings happiness as much as the thing itself.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Favorites
Some of my favorite things include:
- Activities: hanging out with friends and family, rollerblading, hiking, dancing, boating, sitting on rocks by the ocean, concerts and festivals (especially outdoors)
- Sights: oceans, lakes, rivers, trees (with leaves on them or evergreens), see also favorite colors and favorite flowers
- Sounds: the ocean, see also favorite musicians
- Smells: clean outdoor air, pine, cedar, ocean
- Feels: sunshine, grass, comfortable clothes
- Tastes: strawberries, blueberries, flan, pudding, ice cream
- Colors: rainbow, tie-dye, lavender, jade
- Flowers: hydrangeas, lilacs, wisteria
- Names: Emma, Griffin, Hannah, Holly, Jacob, Jade, Jill, Joy, Juniper, Kate, Logan, Sage, Sierra
- Musicians, female vocalists: Ronnie Gilbert, Jessee Havey, Carol Noonan, Leandra Peak, Linda Thompson, Mary Travers, Carol Young
- Musicians, male vocalists : Eric Andersen, Dan Berggren, Joe Crookston, Tom Paxton, Elvis Presley, Tom Rhoads, Tao Rodriguez Seeger, Bill Staines
- Musicians, charismatic and inspiring: Ronnie Gilbert, Tao Rodriguez Seeger, Pete Seeger
- Musicians, groups: Kim and Reggie Harris, Magpie, Peter, Paul, and Mary, Schooner Fare, Serendipity Singers, Smithfield Fair, , the Weavers, Woods Tea Company
- Musicians, not folk: Abba, Beatles, Bee Gees, Meat Loaf, Renaissance, Happy Rhodes, Spirit in Flesh
- Songs:
- The "by" in the list below refers to performer, not necessarily the writer.
- What you Are by the Greencards
- Out of the Rain by the Duhks
- Mountain Air by Dan Berggren
- Mary Ellen Carter by Stan Rogers
- Arrow by Cheryl Wheeler
- This is a Mean World by Sweet Honey in the Rock
- Give Light by Magpie
- Poor Me / (may there always be sunshine) by Joe Crookston
- Rock Me Grandpa by the Limeliters
- There is a Mountain by Donovan
- Funeral for a Friend by Elton John
- Don't Give Up by Peter Gabriel and Kate Bush
- Wake Up by John McCutcheon Songs I like because of the sound, lively
- Sweet Caroline by Neil Diamond
- Love is Strange by Mickey and Sylvia
- Big Blue Sky by Rachel Garlin
- Cosecha lo que Siembres by Roy Brown, Tito Auger, and Tao Rodriguez Seeger Songs I like because of the sound, mellow
- Young Westley by Mary McCaslin
- Wicked Game by Gypsy Soul
- Acony Bell by Gillian Welch or Annie and the Hedonists
- The Water is Wide by Mustard's Retreat
- If I Needed You by Lyle Lovett
- No Pride at All by Jesse Winchester
- Defying Gravity by Jesse Winchester
- So Long Marianne by Leonard Cohen
- Drop Me Down by Tres Chicas
- How the Night Time Sings by Brooks Williams
- Peace Will Come by Tom Paxton
- She Loved Moses by Amy Fradon
- Potter's Wheel by Freyda Epstein
- Evona Darling by Linda Thompson with Teddy Thompson
- Quite Early Morning by the Mammals
- Tango to Evorra by Loreena McKennitt
- Night Ride Across the Caucasus by Loreena McKennitt
- The Dolphins by Billy Bragg
- Roseville Fair by Bill Staines
- I Don't Want Your Millions Mister by Tao Rodriguez Seeger
- Closer by Rani Arbo and Daisy Mayhem
- Sara McCutcheon by Cathy Fink
- The Golden Glove by John Wesley Harding
- One Voice by Wailin' Jennies
- Waltz of the Wallflowers by Small Potatoes
- Horizontal Hold by Peter Ostroushko
- Hot Frogs on the Loose by Fred Small
- Rock Me to Sleep by Faith Petric
- 10,000 Candles, 10,000 Cranes by Small Potatoes
- From Every Mountain Side by Dan Berggren
- Peace Begins in my Own Heart by Dan Berggren
- Satisfied Mind by the Mammals
- Riverside by Ollabelle
- The Only Way by Ellis Paul
- Rich by Neal and Leandra
- Old Green Sweater by Dan Berggren
- Coat of Many Colors by Dolly Parton
- What We Left Behind by Tom Pacheco
- Alice by Peggy Eyres and Dan Berggren
- Tannery Pond Reel by Dan Berggren, Chris Shaw, and John Kirk
- Boys in the Choir by Tom Chapin
- My Personal Revenge, recorded by Jackson Browne, written by Tomás Borge & Louis Enrique MejÃa Godoy; English translation by Jorge Calderón. Poignant songs
- Ten Dollar Christmas by Christopher Shaw and Bridget Ball
- Christmas in the Trenches by John McCutcheon
- Jack and Lucy by Hugh and Katie Moffatt
- Something in the Rain by Tish Hinojosa
- Kilkelly, Ireland by Greenfields of America
- Frankie and Johnny by Garnet Rogers
- Outside by Kate Blain
- Dance and Sway by Joe Crookston
- Lies by Stan Rogers
- Radio stations: WMPG, WMUD, WUMB
- Authors: Tamora Pierce, Cynthia Voigt, Robin McKinley
- Fictional characters: Luna Lovegood, Sandrilene fa Toren
- Actors, female: Drew Barrymore, Kate Jackson, Brittany Murphy
- Actors, male: Nicholas Cage, John Cusack, Johnny Depp
- TV: Boston Legal, Pushing Daisies
- Movies: Adaptation, Fierce Creatures, High Fidelity, Mama Mia, Moonstruck, Secretary, Walk Hard: The Dewey Cox Story
- States: Maine, Vermont
- Accents: Maine
- Colleges: College of the Atlantic, Haverford, Marlboro
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Thanksgiving
Today is Thanksgiving, and I have many things to be thankful for:
- My family: They have the traits I value, such as having a respectful, nonjudgmental attitude toward others, not being pushy, and living according to their values. Their paths are diverse, but all are true to who they are rather than conforming to convention, and they encourage others to be true to who they are as well.
- My job and financial stability: Some people who make more money than I do complain of low salaries, but I think I am lucky to have my income. There are so many people in this world who have less than I do. Many of them are hard-working, smart people, and it is just a fluke of luck that I am able to have the things I do. Some people more talented than I am are unemployed. I have been unemployed in the past, and I'm lucky that I have a job now. My job allows me to have a spacious apartment and a car that runs well. Some people would consider a 12-year-old compact car not to be luxurious, but to me, it is. I am fortunate to be from a modest upbringing, so that I don't feel I need a more expensive lifestyle. I can afford to buy groceries, and not just the essentials, but I can spend extra to get the things I want, like organic foods. My job also allows me sufficient vacation/sick time.
- Health: It's not perfect, and it does prevent me from doing some things I used to enjoy, but overall, I'm getting better more than I'm getting worse, and I'm able to work full-time, take care of myself, and do a few extra things too. A lot of people don't have all that, so I'm really fortunate. And I think that being sick changed me by making me appreciate the substance of people rather than appreciating people just for being willing to gallivant with me.
- My town: I like living in a town that's not a big city, but not the middle of nowhere either. I like that we have a good farmer's market and so many independently owned restaurants and stores. So many other towns are just full of chains.
- Radio: I'm lucky to be a member of a radio station. I like listening to all the new music, and figuring out which songs go together as I prepare playlists. I like talking to Harry on and off the air. I appreciate the people at the station who have been kind to me, such as the other folk DJs, Sean, Mario, and Rich.
- Clearwater: I'm grateful to have the opportunity to volunteer at the Clearwater festival each year. I like being in a community that shares my values and being in a beautiful outdoor setting.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Compliment
I was on the radio as a guest on another DJ's show. A listener called in and asked what I looked like. The DJ extolled my beauty at some length, saying, "If I wasn't so frickin' gay, I'd jump across the table at her."
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Ode to summer
I've written this other years, but it's such a pleasure to
- Have it be light outside after work.
- Be able to enjoy the fresh air wafting against my skin rather than tensing up to ward off the cold.
- Feel the grass on my bare feet.
- Walk barefoot, or wear sandals.
- Wear clothes that allow freedom of movement.
- Be outside, whether for gardening, outdoor concerts, festivals, having lunch, looking at the scenery, or anything else.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Seasons
To me, there are two seasons, summer and winter. Summer is when I can go outside after work. Winter is when it's cold and dark after work. In summer, I can lie in the grass next to my garden, enjoying the fragrance of growing plants and the feel of fresh air wafting across my skin. In winter, instead I lie in front of the TV. In summer, I can wear comfortable, pretty clothes which encourage free-spirited movement. In winter, I huddle under many layers of clothes. In winter, my body is tense with warding off the cold. In summer, my body relaxes to drink in the fresh air and sunshine. In winter, the trees and fields are bare and gray. In summer, they burst forth full of life. Just looking at the green of leaves and grass makes my heart happy. I like summer evenings, with the feel of soft cool grass beneath bare feet, and the way the sun low in the sky gives a golden glow to the green of the leaves. I like sitting by the river at sunset, with the water looking so smooth and pink. I like the joyful bright yellow of dandelions. I like the feel of the earth in my hands as I work in my garden. I'm so glad summer has arrived.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
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