- A busy weekend of having fun. I usually don't do that much. I fear I will be sick from it. I schedule a day of rest afterwards. On the day of rest, I am tired and I do want to rest, but I feel okay. I think maybe I can do fun stuff after all. Maybe I don't even need all these days of rest. But then the following weekend, I get my punishment, I get sick.
- First comes the depression. I feel needy. I long for people to be kind for me. I feel as if nobody likes me. Then comes the sick. Sore throat and aches. When the physical sick comes, the emotional sick lifts. I welcome the physical sick, because it's a relief from the emotional sick.
- I get sick on weekends and holidays. I get sick on days when I don't have a commitment to be a certain place at a certain time. If I do have a commitment to be somewhere, I make myself go, and a lot of times I feel okay.
So, do I need to make sure I have a commitment every weekend, so that I never get sick? Or do I need to make sure I don't have any fun, so that I don't get sick the weekend after the fun? Perhaps I need to make commitments to small funs. There are smaller things I do that don't make me sick.
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