In my dream just before I woke up this morning, my friends were in a band and sat down to play. I sat down to watch them, because I was the only one in the group of friends without musical ability. But it turned out there was another person. I did not know him before, but he was in the same circle of friends. He too was watching, sitting next to me. There was a cat on my lap. I was petting the cat. After a while, I gave the cat to him. And we touched each other and fell in love. I put my hand out and he took it and held my hand. I felt enveloped in warmth and love.
It's something that is missing from my life, and maybe creating it in my imagination can help give me a centeredness that will help me get through. It's not romance necessarily that I need. It's being accepted, valued, loved, and secure.
I got up, used the computer, had breakfeast (including caffeine tea), and then fell asleep. Weekends I often fall asleep right after caffeine, as well as right after breakfast.
This time I slept in the living room. The living room windows are on the east side and it was morning, so I slept in a patch of warm sun. Groggily, I thought, "It's late enough in the day that when I wake up, I can put on my pajamas." Then I woke up enough to realize that 1) it was morning, and 2) I was still wearing pajamas.