- Morris dance camp
- Time bank conference
- See my family -- various people in various places, so this is really more than one item on my to do list
- Go to the ocean
- Stay home. Take some time for reflection, writing, meditation, communing with nature. Catch up on projects and chores.
- Figure out what to do with my life. Find another way to earn a living.
It is tempting to go with items 1 and 2, because there's where my inertia is now. I think that instead, I need to find a way to focus on 6. It's a hard one to do, because there's no clearcut way to accomplish it.
One way to start is to think about what I want to do. I have a lot of ideas. I've had the same ideas for years, but I just keep going in circles because I haven't managed to move from swirl of ideas to implementation. I know that I like to work with information in support of a community that values what I have to offer and is working toward goals consistent with my values. I care about:
- Education. Helping people to grow in knowledge, skill, critical thinking, compassion, and wisdom. Helping people to understand nature and society.
- Restorative justice.
- Sustainable living, renewable energy, the transition movement, small business, organic agriculture, permaculture. I would not be an expert in these areas. My expertise might be in education, and my employer would educate people about these things.
What can I do to move my life forward? There are a few approaches I can think of:
- There are two organization that seem to be working toward all of the above things. One is a college, and the other is a camp. I give money to these organization. I check their job postings. I did ask once at one about volunteer work. Both are some distance from where I live. I could make a trip there, but I couldn't volunteer there on a weekly basis. Maybe in July I could take some vacation time to visit one or both of those places. Maybe I could find a way to be involved in a short term way.
- Maybe I could get involved in more of the things happening in my local community. I'm over-extended now. Maybe I should quit Morris dance and join the transition group instead.
- Are there skills I can develop? One of my problems is that I'm not sure what I can or want to offer. I like working with databases and web sites and statistics, but I'm a real amateur at it. If I could focus on something and develop my skills in that area, then I would have something to offer.
Sometimes people get in a rut. They say they want to do something. They keep saying it for years but they never do anything. I see that in others. I see that in myself. I don't want to be that person. I'm struggle to break out of the rut.