I find myself feeling content today.
I was downtown for 5 hours today, at the farmer's market and nearby stores. At the market, I had breakfast, got groceries, and spent some time tabling for a community group I'm involved in. I liked being part of the community.
And then I went home, and I liked having quiet time at home to do whatever I wanted, to not have to be running around going places. I compiled photos and compiled a playlist for my radio show. I like compiling stuff, listening to beautiful music, and looking at beautiful photos.
There was a festival tonight, with fireworks. I wanted to go, but it would have been too much. This year I didn't go to our county fair either. I didn't go to the July 4th festival and fireworks that I usually go to. I only went kayaking once. In the past, missing those things would have upset me. I think growing older means accepting that you can't do everything, living within your energy level, and savoring that which you do, rather than aspiring to do everything. In the past, I have pushed myself to do things I wanted to do, and I learned from experience that they're not enjoyable if I'm tired and sick while I'm doing them. If I'm feeling tired and sick, as I was today, I will find more enjoyment in compiling playlists than I will in going to festivals.