On the way in to work this morning, I showed my coworker friend that I was dressed in orange and black for Halloween. He said, "I'm dressed in blue and green," joking that he was dressed for Halloween too, although blue and green are not traditionally Halloween colors.
Then at the end of the day when he was leaving, he said, "Happy Halloween my festively dressed fellow."
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Reading Bittersweet
A few days ago. Last week. Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. I felt good. Mostly the past few months I have not been sick, but last week I felt even better than what is currently normal for me. Fatigue was lifted. I relished living.
Yesterday, Friday, fatigue hit.
Okay, yeah, usually Friday night I'm tired, take it easy. I assumed Saturday would go back to normal.
"I feel like a bulldozer," I said,
"You feel like you got hit by a bulldozer, or you feel like you are a bulldozer? There's a difference you know," he said.
"What does it sound like?" I said. I knew he knew the answer to the question he had asked. I had just told him how my day was going. It was nearly 3pm at that point. I was still in bed, still in my pajamas. I told him I had been dozing when he called. I woke up at 10:30am, and thought I was going to get up, but instead, I was still dozing on and off.
With fatigue comes depression. Comes a feeling that no one loves me. Comes a feeling that my life is hopeless. Comes a feeling that all I ever do is work hard, that all I have are demands upon me, no place for joy, no place to relax.
When it comes, I escape. I rebel. Some rebel with drunken carousing. I rebel by staying up too late reading fiction.
Two weeks ago, I got three novels out of the library. One I read already. Two were left. Last night, I chose the shorter one. I chose the shorter one because I did not want to stay up too late.
I chose the shorter one and I read it. I read it beginning to end, and it was only a little bit late. Maybe 10:30. I always aim to go to bed 9:30, but never make it so early.
I finished the book, and it was only a little bit late, so I went back to the beginning and started reading it again.
I read it one and a half times last night. I put it down before finishing it the second time. I think it was around midnight when I went to sleep.
I went to sleep and I slept and slept, and was still dozing around 2pm when my friend called me.
We finished talking around 3, and finally I got out of bed and got some breakfast.
I started reading the second book, the longer one.
My friend called again around 7. I told him that I had started reading around 3:45 and was now on page 202. He thought that was a lot of reading. He said, "Be careful, or you'll get in-letter-gestion."
We finished talking and I went back to reading. I finished that book. I went back to the book I had read one and a half times, and finished the second half of that one.
Mostly I read Young Adult fantasy novels with female main characters written by female authors. I read that kind of book because I can't relate to books about people with jobs or cars or children or guns or adult cynicism. I don't like fantasy novels that drip with magic, unicorns, dragons, and quests to find magical objects. I like fantasy novels because they often involve time spent in forests, and because they don't usually involve cars, jobs, offices, factories, and guns.
The book I read last night was Bittersweet by Drew Lamm. Not a fantasy novel. When I was in the library that day two weeks ago, I pulled it off the shelf and opened it at random to see if it was good. Soon, tears were in my eyes. Yes, this must be an engaging story. So I got it.
Reading it last night, it made me cry.
Usually when I stay up late reading novels, then when I emerge back into reality, I'm depressed. Of course I was depressed to begin with, that's why I started reading. But I think that they make me worse. What I should do, instead of reading, is listen to music. I've done that sometimes when I'm depressed, and it has been healing.
Anyway, Bittersweet. It a way it reminded me of Deerskin by Robin McKinley, because both are about a girl numbed by hurt, and her journey to reclaim her life.
It was a good book. Good because the author draws you into the heart of the main character, whose name is Taylor.
Taylor is like a boat on a stormy sea. Tossed about by her emotions, she behaves in ways she doesn't like. It is as if she is lost within herself, out of touch with the way her physical body is behaving in the real world.
She's hurting and she's numb and she's running away.
And as I read, I cried and cried for all the ways I'm hurting and numb and running away.
In the end, she reclaims herself.
She writes
In the end, she says she will "gather in what I love," and "sip the sweet juice of each of my days," and "You won't catch me dying while I'm alive -- I'm not going to die until I'm dead."
It's hard to live zestfully while I'm sick, which is what I seem to be today.
But I know I will not always be so. Today, bulldozed, I sleep and read. In time, I'll be better and I'll go back to dancing and gazing at trees. I'll still have the burden of that horrid job weighting me down.
Maybe I won't be able to stand up and run like Taylor does in her poem. But the sparrow within me will find its voice again.
Yesterday, Friday, fatigue hit.
Okay, yeah, usually Friday night I'm tired, take it easy. I assumed Saturday would go back to normal.
"I feel like a bulldozer," I said,
"You feel like you got hit by a bulldozer, or you feel like you are a bulldozer? There's a difference you know," he said.
"What does it sound like?" I said. I knew he knew the answer to the question he had asked. I had just told him how my day was going. It was nearly 3pm at that point. I was still in bed, still in my pajamas. I told him I had been dozing when he called. I woke up at 10:30am, and thought I was going to get up, but instead, I was still dozing on and off.
With fatigue comes depression. Comes a feeling that no one loves me. Comes a feeling that my life is hopeless. Comes a feeling that all I ever do is work hard, that all I have are demands upon me, no place for joy, no place to relax.
When it comes, I escape. I rebel. Some rebel with drunken carousing. I rebel by staying up too late reading fiction.
Two weeks ago, I got three novels out of the library. One I read already. Two were left. Last night, I chose the shorter one. I chose the shorter one because I did not want to stay up too late.
I chose the shorter one and I read it. I read it beginning to end, and it was only a little bit late. Maybe 10:30. I always aim to go to bed 9:30, but never make it so early.
I finished the book, and it was only a little bit late, so I went back to the beginning and started reading it again.
I read it one and a half times last night. I put it down before finishing it the second time. I think it was around midnight when I went to sleep.
I went to sleep and I slept and slept, and was still dozing around 2pm when my friend called me.
We finished talking around 3, and finally I got out of bed and got some breakfast.
I started reading the second book, the longer one.
My friend called again around 7. I told him that I had started reading around 3:45 and was now on page 202. He thought that was a lot of reading. He said, "Be careful, or you'll get in-letter-gestion."
We finished talking and I went back to reading. I finished that book. I went back to the book I had read one and a half times, and finished the second half of that one.
Mostly I read Young Adult fantasy novels with female main characters written by female authors. I read that kind of book because I can't relate to books about people with jobs or cars or children or guns or adult cynicism. I don't like fantasy novels that drip with magic, unicorns, dragons, and quests to find magical objects. I like fantasy novels because they often involve time spent in forests, and because they don't usually involve cars, jobs, offices, factories, and guns.
The book I read last night was Bittersweet by Drew Lamm. Not a fantasy novel. When I was in the library that day two weeks ago, I pulled it off the shelf and opened it at random to see if it was good. Soon, tears were in my eyes. Yes, this must be an engaging story. So I got it.
Reading it last night, it made me cry.
Usually when I stay up late reading novels, then when I emerge back into reality, I'm depressed. Of course I was depressed to begin with, that's why I started reading. But I think that they make me worse. What I should do, instead of reading, is listen to music. I've done that sometimes when I'm depressed, and it has been healing.
Anyway, Bittersweet. It a way it reminded me of Deerskin by Robin McKinley, because both are about a girl numbed by hurt, and her journey to reclaim her life.
It was a good book. Good because the author draws you into the heart of the main character, whose name is Taylor.
Taylor is like a boat on a stormy sea. Tossed about by her emotions, she behaves in ways she doesn't like. It is as if she is lost within herself, out of touch with the way her physical body is behaving in the real world.
She's hurting and she's numb and she's running away.
And as I read, I cried and cried for all the ways I'm hurting and numb and running away.
In the end, she reclaims herself.
She writes
I was coveredBut in the end, she loves a guy who loves her back. In the end, she has health. In the end, her survival does not depend on going to a job she hates. Seems to me it would be easier to reclaim my life if I had those things. On the other hand, I do have the things she lost -- a mother, a grandmother. And though I don't have romantic love in my life, I have a friend who helps me keep me from getting too far out of touch with reality by calling me often.
in earth and leaves
when the white-throated sparrow inside me
sang,
reminding me of the tops of trees,
and who I am when I stand up.
So I push
hard off the ground
and run
into my own arms
In the end, she says she will "gather in what I love," and "sip the sweet juice of each of my days," and "You won't catch me dying while I'm alive -- I'm not going to die until I'm dead."
It's hard to live zestfully while I'm sick, which is what I seem to be today.
But I know I will not always be so. Today, bulldozed, I sleep and read. In time, I'll be better and I'll go back to dancing and gazing at trees. I'll still have the burden of that horrid job weighting me down.
Maybe I won't be able to stand up and run like Taylor does in her poem. But the sparrow within me will find its voice again.
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Materialism
The skirt I ordered came in the mail. At first glance, I did not like it much. Maybe I should send it back. I tried it on. Then I didn't want to take it off. I had to take it off though, because I had to try on the pants that also arrived that day. The pants were for a performance the next day. If they were not going to work, I would have to go out shopping for some that would. Luckily the pants were just what they needed to be. I put the skirt back on and wore it the rest of the evening. Its appearance is plain, but it's very comfortable.
Then there's the new goblet I got for druid rituals. Ornately decorated, green and brown, Celtic knots, a tree. Until now, I've been using ordinary mugs or glasses for rituals. I could have kept on that way. But instead I bought something. I like its beauty.
It's wrong though, to like material things. That's what they told me.
But material things make us human. Humans wear clothes. Humans cook their food in pots. Humans live in houses. We depend on material things for our survival.
Why then this shame?
It comes from my background as a Quaker and as a New Englander.
I think the aversion to materialism is much like prudishness about sex. In order for humans to survive, we need material things, and in order for us to continue as a species, we need to procreate. Therefore, we are endowed with desires for material things and for procreative activity. The desires are strong, but if unchecked, can have disastrous consequences. Therefore, we check them with cultural prohibitions.
I grew up in a culture of sexual revolution. I was never taught that sexuality was shameful. I was taught that it was joyful and good, but best kept private.
But I did grew up with the cultural prohibition on materialism. And I still believe in it. I believe that we consume far more than we need, and in so doing, we are destroying our habitat. I believe that it's very wrong that some live in wealth while others live in poverty.
So yes, let me loosen up a bit and let myself enjoy a comfortable skirt and a beautiful goblet, but let me never forget the true cost of these things -- what was taken from the environment to create and transport them, what work was done by humans to make them.
Then there's the new goblet I got for druid rituals. Ornately decorated, green and brown, Celtic knots, a tree. Until now, I've been using ordinary mugs or glasses for rituals. I could have kept on that way. But instead I bought something. I like its beauty.
It's wrong though, to like material things. That's what they told me.
But material things make us human. Humans wear clothes. Humans cook their food in pots. Humans live in houses. We depend on material things for our survival.
Why then this shame?
It comes from my background as a Quaker and as a New Englander.
I think the aversion to materialism is much like prudishness about sex. In order for humans to survive, we need material things, and in order for us to continue as a species, we need to procreate. Therefore, we are endowed with desires for material things and for procreative activity. The desires are strong, but if unchecked, can have disastrous consequences. Therefore, we check them with cultural prohibitions.
I grew up in a culture of sexual revolution. I was never taught that sexuality was shameful. I was taught that it was joyful and good, but best kept private.
But I did grew up with the cultural prohibition on materialism. And I still believe in it. I believe that we consume far more than we need, and in so doing, we are destroying our habitat. I believe that it's very wrong that some live in wealth while others live in poverty.
So yes, let me loosen up a bit and let myself enjoy a comfortable skirt and a beautiful goblet, but let me never forget the true cost of these things -- what was taken from the environment to create and transport them, what work was done by humans to make them.
Charm is overrated
This is a follow-up to my post "Annoying and not so annoying people." I continue to wonder about why I like some people and dislike others.
One sort of person I tend to dislike is charming, flirtatious people. I think I used to push aside that dislike. I used to think I only dislike flirtatious women because I'm jealous of the attention they get from men. I used to think I only dislike flirtatious men because I'm jealous of the attention they give to other women.
I realized though, that's not all there is to it.
But even if that was what there was to it, so what? I could still dislike them. No point in trying to make myself feel how I think I ought to feel, i.e. not jealous. Better to feel what I feel.
I find just because you feel something, you don't have to do anything about it. You can just sit and watch the river go by, the river of thoughts and feelings.
Anyhow, back to charming and flirtatious people. What do I mean by charming and flirtatious people? They are the people who try to draw a reaction out of you, who try to make you like them.
I've never liked pushy people. I've always liked people who give others room to be whoever they are. I like people who listen and watch, and respond according to what they see in others. If someone shrinks back from them, they stop pushing so hard.
And I just realized in the past few days, that's the same reason I don't like flirtatious people, because they are pushy in a way. They are trying to push me into responding to them in a certain way, to push me into liking them.
I was once close to someone like that. When he was with people he did not know well, he demanded their attention. That always bothered me. But when he was comfortable with people, he mellowed out, and that was the side of him that I liked.
There are some people I know who are really high quality people. They are comfortable enough in themselves that they aren't always trying to make other people respond to them in a certain way. They just go about living life with integrity, joy, playfulness, and kindness. Those are the kind of people I want to be around, and that's the kind of person I want to be.
One sort of person I tend to dislike is charming, flirtatious people. I think I used to push aside that dislike. I used to think I only dislike flirtatious women because I'm jealous of the attention they get from men. I used to think I only dislike flirtatious men because I'm jealous of the attention they give to other women.
I realized though, that's not all there is to it.
But even if that was what there was to it, so what? I could still dislike them. No point in trying to make myself feel how I think I ought to feel, i.e. not jealous. Better to feel what I feel.
I find just because you feel something, you don't have to do anything about it. You can just sit and watch the river go by, the river of thoughts and feelings.
Anyhow, back to charming and flirtatious people. What do I mean by charming and flirtatious people? They are the people who try to draw a reaction out of you, who try to make you like them.
I've never liked pushy people. I've always liked people who give others room to be whoever they are. I like people who listen and watch, and respond according to what they see in others. If someone shrinks back from them, they stop pushing so hard.
And I just realized in the past few days, that's the same reason I don't like flirtatious people, because they are pushy in a way. They are trying to push me into responding to them in a certain way, to push me into liking them.
I was once close to someone like that. When he was with people he did not know well, he demanded their attention. That always bothered me. But when he was comfortable with people, he mellowed out, and that was the side of him that I liked.
There are some people I know who are really high quality people. They are comfortable enough in themselves that they aren't always trying to make other people respond to them in a certain way. They just go about living life with integrity, joy, playfulness, and kindness. Those are the kind of people I want to be around, and that's the kind of person I want to be.
Druid ritual
Druid ritual. Done in the freedom of solitude. Don't worry about how it sounds. Don't worry what they think. Just give voice to the spirit. Let the spirit flow.
Words memorized, repeated. Let their meanings cast their footsteps. Speak the words memorized, and speak the new words which bubble forth. Don't worry if they make sense. They tell me what is in my heart.
Roots. Return to your roots. I returned to my father's land. It reminded who I am. Returning to my roots tells me how to step forward.
Wisdom. Wisdom tells me what I need to know. Wisdom tells me what I need to do. Escape my job. There's where I need to turn.
The wheel of the year turns round and round. Summer turns to fall turns to winter turns to spring turns to summer turns to fall. Keeps going round and round. But not like the hamster's wheel. The wheel of the year is always marching forward. Each year, we carry with us the wisdom grown in years past.
The year outside me now is in autumn, but my life, I think it's in spring. I hope. Six years ago my year was in winter solstice, the bottom of the darkness. My health left. My friends left. Betrayed. As winter solstice turns to Imbolc, so I slowly turned to light, building my life up first inwardly, in solitude. I immersed myself in music. I found pantheism. I found druidry. I gazed at trees. I danced in solitude and in joy. Then, my soul flooded with light once more, I reached out. I found communities. I found people I liked. I found people who value what I have to offer. I pray that I continue to move forward. I pray that I stay grounded within while also blossoming without. The nature of life is that despair will come again one day. And the nature of life is that I will then rebuild myself once again.
People used to know how to make stuff. But I don't know how. I just buy stuff. If I was going to make something, I could buy the cloth, buy the pattern, sew it. But still, buying stuff. People used to make the pattern. People used to make the cloth.
The words of the ritual flow forth. Stored somewhere in my memory. If I think about it in isolation, I don't know what that line is. But when I say the line that comes before it, then it flows forth. Like with the dances. I can't think how they go, but when I'm out there with people doing them, my body seems to do them. And the songs I've learned on the ukulele. I can't think what the notes are, but when I play them, they emerge from my fingers.
So much lives somewhere within us, more than the mind can see.
I walk around the circle. Melody pours forth. This is not part of the memorized ritual. This is the spirit. The spirit tells me to sing, so I sing. I don't have to think, I just turn my body over to the spirit, and the spirit gives me song.
We have evolved to find joy in song, in dance, in religious ritual, in sex. Perhaps these evolved for practical reasons. But now, forget the practical reasons. The joy is here. Let us revel in it.
The ritual has found its end. I blow out the candle. The flame is extinguished but the spirit lives on.
Words memorized, repeated. Let their meanings cast their footsteps. Speak the words memorized, and speak the new words which bubble forth. Don't worry if they make sense. They tell me what is in my heart.
Roots. Return to your roots. I returned to my father's land. It reminded who I am. Returning to my roots tells me how to step forward.
Wisdom. Wisdom tells me what I need to know. Wisdom tells me what I need to do. Escape my job. There's where I need to turn.
The wheel of the year turns round and round. Summer turns to fall turns to winter turns to spring turns to summer turns to fall. Keeps going round and round. But not like the hamster's wheel. The wheel of the year is always marching forward. Each year, we carry with us the wisdom grown in years past.
The year outside me now is in autumn, but my life, I think it's in spring. I hope. Six years ago my year was in winter solstice, the bottom of the darkness. My health left. My friends left. Betrayed. As winter solstice turns to Imbolc, so I slowly turned to light, building my life up first inwardly, in solitude. I immersed myself in music. I found pantheism. I found druidry. I gazed at trees. I danced in solitude and in joy. Then, my soul flooded with light once more, I reached out. I found communities. I found people I liked. I found people who value what I have to offer. I pray that I continue to move forward. I pray that I stay grounded within while also blossoming without. The nature of life is that despair will come again one day. And the nature of life is that I will then rebuild myself once again.
People used to know how to make stuff. But I don't know how. I just buy stuff. If I was going to make something, I could buy the cloth, buy the pattern, sew it. But still, buying stuff. People used to make the pattern. People used to make the cloth.
The words of the ritual flow forth. Stored somewhere in my memory. If I think about it in isolation, I don't know what that line is. But when I say the line that comes before it, then it flows forth. Like with the dances. I can't think how they go, but when I'm out there with people doing them, my body seems to do them. And the songs I've learned on the ukulele. I can't think what the notes are, but when I play them, they emerge from my fingers.
So much lives somewhere within us, more than the mind can see.
I walk around the circle. Melody pours forth. This is not part of the memorized ritual. This is the spirit. The spirit tells me to sing, so I sing. I don't have to think, I just turn my body over to the spirit, and the spirit gives me song.
We have evolved to find joy in song, in dance, in religious ritual, in sex. Perhaps these evolved for practical reasons. But now, forget the practical reasons. The joy is here. Let us revel in it.
The ritual has found its end. I blow out the candle. The flame is extinguished but the spirit lives on.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Stories
Stories are a part of human cultures. We have stories like the Bible, the Mabinogion, Robin Hood, King Arthur, Cinderella, Little Red Riding Hood, and Beauty and the Beast. The stories we grow up with shape our view of the world. In that way, the stories shape our culture. But the culture also shapes the stories. The stories we tell now are not the same as the stories we told centuries ago. In folk music, I notice that the songs that are centuries old tend to have plots more like Romeo and Juliet -- people fall in love and then they die -- while in more modern songs, it's more common to have a plot in which people fall in love and then they live happily ever after. Now once dark tales become Disney movies with less violence and more kindness.
How have stories shaped our culture? One way is that we all know what unicorns, giants, elves, fairies, vampires, gnomes, and dwarves are, even though they don't exist. I think another way is stories tell us what traits make one heroic. For example, Robin Hood says it is noble to steal from the rich and give to the poor.
Many stories today push a message of love while at the same time the heroes fight battles using physical violence (for example, Harry Potter). A Quaker story would not do that. The Bronze Bow by Elizabeth George Speare is an example of a good Quaker story I have read.
How have stories shaped our culture? One way is that we all know what unicorns, giants, elves, fairies, vampires, gnomes, and dwarves are, even though they don't exist. I think another way is stories tell us what traits make one heroic. For example, Robin Hood says it is noble to steal from the rich and give to the poor.
Many stories today push a message of love while at the same time the heroes fight battles using physical violence (for example, Harry Potter). A Quaker story would not do that. The Bronze Bow by Elizabeth George Speare is an example of a good Quaker story I have read.
Three couples
There were a number of couples at an event I attended last weekend. Three in particular showed me something about what I value in relationships.
One couple has an open relationship. The wife said her husband could not be there at the event because it was the only weekend when he could visit his girlfriend in another state. When older, more traditional people expressed alarm, she said, "Oh I have several boyfriends." During the event, she kept in touch with him by text messages and voice phone calls, telling him what was going on, and announcing his comments to the group, so that he was in attendance, though not physically present.
I think if I were to be married, I'd want it to be monogamous, although since I don't have anyone to marry at the moment, I think there are a range of kinds of relationships that I would be interested in. So, though I do feel a twinge of envy that there are men who want her, mainly what I see is that this is not what I would want if I were to be married.
In another couple, the man has an illness which severely limits his movement and functioning. His wife was matter of factly attentive to his needs. For example, a mug was passed around and everyone was invited to sip from it. When the mug came to them, she whipped out a straw so that he too would be able to drink from it. But she didn't only attend to practical matters. She also showed little loving gestures, like stroking his hair.
It reminds me of the song "Everyday Things" by Gene and Gayla Mills, which says:
I noticed not only the couple, but also the community that surrounded them. Though disabled, the man is still invited to parties, still welcomed. No one complains about the noise made by the machine he depends on. They just say, "It's always good to see you." If ever I am disabled like that, that is what I hope for: a welcoming circle of friends, a loving caretaker, people who take me places so that I can still participate in life.
And if ever I were married to someone, I would hope he would allow me to meet his needs lovingly, the way this man allowed his wife to do. What I mean is, I don't wish for anyone to be so disabled, but everyone has needs, and I've been with people who did not want to show their needs or accept what I had to offer.
I noticed the third couple during the singalong. The way it works with this group, a person who wants to sing a song just starts the song. The rest of the group sings along the person, but the person leading is responsible for knowing the words to the verses.
A woman started a song, but then started floundering on the words. She looked toward her husband for help. He started singing with her. He just seemed so consistent, so steady. It was like he was holding her, like he would never drop her. That's what I want. Someone I can count on to be there, solid like a rock.
One couple has an open relationship. The wife said her husband could not be there at the event because it was the only weekend when he could visit his girlfriend in another state. When older, more traditional people expressed alarm, she said, "Oh I have several boyfriends." During the event, she kept in touch with him by text messages and voice phone calls, telling him what was going on, and announcing his comments to the group, so that he was in attendance, though not physically present.
I think if I were to be married, I'd want it to be monogamous, although since I don't have anyone to marry at the moment, I think there are a range of kinds of relationships that I would be interested in. So, though I do feel a twinge of envy that there are men who want her, mainly what I see is that this is not what I would want if I were to be married.
In another couple, the man has an illness which severely limits his movement and functioning. His wife was matter of factly attentive to his needs. For example, a mug was passed around and everyone was invited to sip from it. When the mug came to them, she whipped out a straw so that he too would be able to drink from it. But she didn't only attend to practical matters. She also showed little loving gestures, like stroking his hair.
It reminds me of the song "Everyday Things" by Gene and Gayla Mills, which says:
I've heard those love songs, you've heard 'em tooTo me, relationships are about caring for each other in the realities of daily life.
about all the things those lovers would do
They'd climb the high mountain, swim the wide sea
Walk through a fire, even die if need be
Oh, but how many times in the course of our lives
does the need for any of those things arise?
I noticed not only the couple, but also the community that surrounded them. Though disabled, the man is still invited to parties, still welcomed. No one complains about the noise made by the machine he depends on. They just say, "It's always good to see you." If ever I am disabled like that, that is what I hope for: a welcoming circle of friends, a loving caretaker, people who take me places so that I can still participate in life.
And if ever I were married to someone, I would hope he would allow me to meet his needs lovingly, the way this man allowed his wife to do. What I mean is, I don't wish for anyone to be so disabled, but everyone has needs, and I've been with people who did not want to show their needs or accept what I had to offer.
I noticed the third couple during the singalong. The way it works with this group, a person who wants to sing a song just starts the song. The rest of the group sings along the person, but the person leading is responsible for knowing the words to the verses.
A woman started a song, but then started floundering on the words. She looked toward her husband for help. He started singing with her. He just seemed so consistent, so steady. It was like he was holding her, like he would never drop her. That's what I want. Someone I can count on to be there, solid like a rock.
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